Here is the beautiful story of this breakthrough in Deeksha as it was originally revealed to the western world. Enjoy!
" Father, there’s a golden man in my heart, and he talks to me."
The school director looked up from the papers on his desk at Krishnaji, his eleven-year-old son, and smiled… "What does he say to you, Krishna?” asked the director. “He tells me different things, Father."
..."From what you are describing, it sounds like you are having a vision of Prajapathi. It happens sometimes that people have visions like this. It’s a very special thing, Krishna, a very great blessing. You must cherish it and tell me often what is happening"….
Jeevashram was no ordinary school. The director [Sri Bhagavan] had founded it in 1984 to provide an alternative form of education. He and his wife [Sri Amma] saw that the current educational system was destroying the child. They wanted to create a school where children could truly flower, discover who they really were. The primary focus, right from the beginning, was on spiritual maturity: to free the child of the sense of a separate self and of self-centered preoccupations. They aimed to create an environment free of fear, free of competition…
The director took charge of the school’s spiritual direction, and invited a friend he had known since childhood to become the principal, who could care more for the academic side. The director gave classes on meditation, in different spiritual disciplines, and on philosophy. He encouraged the children to think for themselves, to ponder deep philosophical questions for days at a time….
All the children remember Jeevashram as a magical place… Jyoti [aka Samardashini], a young girl who joined in [the early years] remembers:
"… It felt so good to be there. Physically, it was such a beautiful place… Right away there was a feeling of great space and a sense of awe. The feeling of space was outside – it was a big campus – but it was inside also, inside me. It was filling me up with peace. We felt so much love and affection from the director and his wife. Within three or four days, I was resolving, “I shall be with them forever.” The director’s wife looked after the general administration, and she also took care of the girls. She was like our mother, our best friend. She was somebody who would build us up, who made everything possible for us. There was no limitation in her presence."
From the very beginning, it became a normal thing for children to have mystical experiences. Prayer became very strong for them: they got used to the fact that whatever they asked for came to them. Then in the summer of 1989, things dramatically changed. “Mathew’ [a pseudonym] was a very serious and academic boy from a Christian home. His prayers were always to do better on his exams. One day, the director called him in to the office. "Your prayers are so strong to do well in class," said the director. "Why don’t you pray that grace descends into you and you become enlightened?"
Mathew did as the director suggested. Later in the day, when he walked into the dining hall, he was like a sage. His eyes were deep and penetrating; his body movements slow and deliberate, like a dancer’s. He could hardly speak. The next day he explained to the director that a huge golden ball had appeared before him and descended into him. The ball had spoken a word to him in a language he did not understand.
A few days later, exactly the same thing happened to Chandra… Chandra also suddenly felt a golden ball descend through the top of his head and settle into his heart. He was immediately drenched in silence, in a feeling of ecstatic peace that filled him completely. When the class ended and the children filed out into the hot afternoon, Chandra remained in his place, still absorbed in his rapture. It took several hours until he could move again, and when he did, he was transformed completely. Soon after, almost the same thing happened to two other children.
Throughout his childhood, [young Bhagavan] felt compelled by a higher power - something that he did not understand - to chant certain mantras and to hold his body in certain postures. A huge golden ball would appear to him a great deal of the time… It was not until the same golden ball descended into Mathew and named itself all those years later that he understood the significance of his childhood visions…
After some time, he called Jyoti in to join them. Years later, she recalls what happened:
"The director just said, 'Krishna will give you something; take it.' There was no other explanation given. He told me to close my eyes. Krishna laid his hands on my head for just a few moments, and then he took them back and sat. All that I could see was a huge light entering into me. As he laid his hands, there was an awakening, a fire. It shot from down under, intense heat spread up to the crown of my head, and then slowly each of the chakras in my body started blossoming. I saw all kinds of different deities located inside my body. The entire thing seemed to me as though it lasted a really long time. By the clock, it happened within two to three minutes…
"A few weeks later… an immense sweetness came over my heart, in the middle of my chest. I could not believe it. I saw the director [Sri Bhagavan] in my heart… After a few days, I saw him there with his wife [Sri Amma], too. The energy kept exploding… Love had taken possession… It was divine love that was consuming me…"
That fall, Krishna gave this same “Deeksha” to many of the children. They would queue up and say, “Please touch me, please touch me.” And right away extraordinary experiences would start to unfold. It became a fairyland, a magical place… The children would go into states of great joy for no reason at all and discover tremendous love for one another, for the animals, for the plants. None of this was taught to them; it came from within…
Krishna and Giri [aka Anandagiri]… would lie on their backs under the stars and find themselves transported to other dimensions. They would have visions of the school director and his wife as divine beings. Sometimes they would appear in a golden form; sometimes surrounded by other golden beings…. As time went by, many of the other children had similar visions of the director and his wife and came to regard them with new eyes. They started to refer to the school director as Sri Bhagavan, which roughly translates to Holy One, and to his wife as Amma, or Divine Mother. These names have stayed with them to this day…
By 1991, the school was fully transformed. Academic studies continued, but just like with the young Bhagavan, they were now a secondary preoccupation for the children as well as the teachers. Everyone was absorbed in deep mystical experiences: of different deities, of profound silence and deep causeless joy and love. ”
from Awakening into Oneness
Ch. 2 The Golden Ball
by Arjuna Ardagh
Published 2007 by Sounds True
Excerpts edited for length & continuity
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Images: Golden Ball translucent
Sign at Jeevashram (aka Satyaloka)
AmmaBhagavan and Krishnaji with physical Golden Ball