Several years before going to India, on the evening of March 5th, 2010, I was blessed with an “awakening experience”...
March 7th has special significance for me because it's not only Sri Bhagavan's birthday, but also the mahasamadhi day of Paramahansa Yogananda, my spiritual master of ~ 30 years. (Yogananda had led me to the Oneness Blessing on Lord Krishna’s birthday in 2008.) So the spiritual energy was already very high on March 5th. I had fasted that day & gone to Yogananda's meditation gardens in Encinitas around 4:30.
After a peaceful but not spectacular meditation, I sat overlooking the ocean peacefully working thru a minor "problem", wondering why a certain woman seemed to speak to me in a condescending way. "She seems so nice to everyone else - what would make her feel the need to do that to me? And why would I care, or react internally when she does?" Then I realized - "Oh, it's the comparing! The mind always naming & comparing & the ego identifying with it all." So that released it and I felt free & joyful. Perhaps that's what precipitated the experience to follow.
I left the gardens at sunset, around 6 pm that day. At the top of the long stairway I heard a soft voice whisper "Walk with God". I had heard this before and as I would descend the stairs I would be more in the Divine Presence. But this time the awareness became much more intense than usual. With each step everything around me seemed to melt, physical boundaries disappeared, and I felt as if I were swimming in slow motion through consciousness itself.
By the time I got down to my car it was so intense I just sat back & let it "hit me like a ton of bricks," as Bhagavan used to say. I watched the river of thoughts flowing by, completely unidentified with any of them. They passed like the occasional cars going by, like little packets of data travelling on the internet, mobile mind energy completely distinct from me in this state of awareness.
There was no way I could drive at that moment, so I sat there & thoroughly enjoyed every second. I drank some cool water in slow motion from my trusty little container. Every perception of sight, sound, taste, and touch was extremely slowed down. I was filled with immense joy, and occasional laughter at how different it all was from previous perceptions.
At one point I realized, "this is what they were describing on the Oneness website." In SRF (Yogananda’s organization) we don't usually talk about our experiences, but I knew that in Oneness they want us to share. So I briefly wondered, "How would I talk about this?" As I tried to put the experience into words, it immediately started to go away, words being so inadequate, second hand hearsay. "OK, no words then, just be..." and it came back again full force.
After about 45 minutes I thought I'd better get going. I needed to pick up more juice for my 3-day fast and then get to Bhaskar & Sudha's for the Deeksha event at 7:30. Then the funniest thing happened. I – who am not into cars at all, other than to appreciate their function – became One with my car!
As I turned on the ignition, I felt every vibration of the engine ripple through my body. A liquid sound, like a loud stream, rippled right past my ears as if I were swimming. Then I realized it was the gasoline going from the gas tank to the engine! I burst out laughing! I asked God to keep everyone around me safe as I slowly drove the back streets to my destination, feeling every bounce in the road & laughing.
The intensity diminished somewhat after about an hour. When I gave the Blessings that night & prayed for each receiver, I felt fully translucent as each divine quality poured from the Divine through my hands into them. The Grace was so strong that night that no one could talk afterward. I didn't mention anything to anyone.
The intensity of awareness decreased further when I got home, but I was awake till 6 a.m. When I awoke again 4 hours later I felt a sweetness in my heart, but all the intense sensory awareness was gone…
Now, several years later, it often returns after I go to the gardens to meditate or when I walk alone on the beach. And sometimes when I turn on my car, I hear the gasoline traveling (more quietly now) and smile in gratitude. :-)
~ Anonymous
Awakened Oneness Trainer
San Diego
Image: Encinitas Meditation Gardens
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After a peaceful but not spectacular meditation, I sat overlooking the ocean peacefully working thru a minor "problem", wondering why a certain woman seemed to speak to me in a condescending way. "She seems so nice to everyone else - what would make her feel the need to do that to me? And why would I care, or react internally when she does?" Then I realized - "Oh, it's the comparing! The mind always naming & comparing & the ego identifying with it all." So that released it and I felt free & joyful. Perhaps that's what precipitated the experience to follow.
I left the gardens at sunset, around 6 pm that day. At the top of the long stairway I heard a soft voice whisper "Walk with God". I had heard this before and as I would descend the stairs I would be more in the Divine Presence. But this time the awareness became much more intense than usual. With each step everything around me seemed to melt, physical boundaries disappeared, and I felt as if I were swimming in slow motion through consciousness itself.
By the time I got down to my car it was so intense I just sat back & let it "hit me like a ton of bricks," as Bhagavan used to say. I watched the river of thoughts flowing by, completely unidentified with any of them. They passed like the occasional cars going by, like little packets of data travelling on the internet, mobile mind energy completely distinct from me in this state of awareness.
There was no way I could drive at that moment, so I sat there & thoroughly enjoyed every second. I drank some cool water in slow motion from my trusty little container. Every perception of sight, sound, taste, and touch was extremely slowed down. I was filled with immense joy, and occasional laughter at how different it all was from previous perceptions.
At one point I realized, "this is what they were describing on the Oneness website." In SRF (Yogananda’s organization) we don't usually talk about our experiences, but I knew that in Oneness they want us to share. So I briefly wondered, "How would I talk about this?" As I tried to put the experience into words, it immediately started to go away, words being so inadequate, second hand hearsay. "OK, no words then, just be..." and it came back again full force.
After about 45 minutes I thought I'd better get going. I needed to pick up more juice for my 3-day fast and then get to Bhaskar & Sudha's for the Deeksha event at 7:30. Then the funniest thing happened. I – who am not into cars at all, other than to appreciate their function – became One with my car!
As I turned on the ignition, I felt every vibration of the engine ripple through my body. A liquid sound, like a loud stream, rippled right past my ears as if I were swimming. Then I realized it was the gasoline going from the gas tank to the engine! I burst out laughing! I asked God to keep everyone around me safe as I slowly drove the back streets to my destination, feeling every bounce in the road & laughing.
The intensity diminished somewhat after about an hour. When I gave the Blessings that night & prayed for each receiver, I felt fully translucent as each divine quality poured from the Divine through my hands into them. The Grace was so strong that night that no one could talk afterward. I didn't mention anything to anyone.
The intensity of awareness decreased further when I got home, but I was awake till 6 a.m. When I awoke again 4 hours later I felt a sweetness in my heart, but all the intense sensory awareness was gone…
Now, several years later, it often returns after I go to the gardens to meditate or when I walk alone on the beach. And sometimes when I turn on my car, I hear the gasoline traveling (more quietly now) and smile in gratitude. :-)
~ Anonymous
Awakened Oneness Trainer
San Diego
Image: Encinitas Meditation Gardens
© AwakeningSanDiego.com All rights reserved
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